Bro Kerry LeBoutillier's paper, "The Initiate," recounts a personal experience of initiation into Freemasonry, vividly illustrating the sensory and emotional journey of a new member. The narrative captures the disorientation and confusion faced during the ritual, including the use of blindfolds, symbolic gestures, and cryptic language. Key elements of the initiation process are highlighted, such as the importance of oaths, the role of the Worshipful Master, and the transition from darkness to light, symbolizing enlightenment. The paper emphasizes the camaraderie among brethren and the significance of the experience, despite the initial bewilderment. It reflects on the transformative nature of initiation, underscoring the blend of tradition and personal growth within Masonic practices. The author concludes with a sense of introspection, pondering the deeper meanings behind the rituals and the secrets of Freemasonry that remain elusive.
Bro Kerry LeBoutillier
December 17th, 2025
February 27th, 2026
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Short Papers Competition 2009
© 2010 Internet Lodge and the author
Paper 21/2009
Title The Initiate
Author Bro Kerry LeBoutillier – Australia
Bang! I jumped. I was blindfolded, dressed like the village idiot with one and a half pairs of slippers
on. A rope was wound around my neck. I stood wondering if the stories about the goats were true.
Disembodied voices began muttering words that sounded like English, but to no vocabulary I had
ever heard. I tried hard to piece them together. Before I could do so, someone grabbed me by the
arm and I was ushered through the doors.
“As this is a prick to your flesh…” What was that? Something sticking into my chest. I tried again to
digest what was happening. But I was kneeling. An even more sepulchral voice was intoning
something to me in Pidgin. I was up again and walking, being led around and around.
I was disoriented. Someone took my arm and I was hitting someone else on the shoulder. More
gibberish. Then I was kneeling again. The questions in my head were pushing their way forward.
“What’s going on?”
“You will now repeat after me…” I repeated what I heard. Did I just hear that right? They want me to
swear that I’ll have my throat cut and my tongue torn out. Where is this going?
Someone whispers in my ear. “Light.”
“I don’t smoke. Oh, sorry.” I repeat the word. “Light.”
The blindfold is whipped off and I start blinking in the glare. Then I am staring at swords which are
pointed rather menacingly at me. This cannot be real. But then I notice that the eyes connected to the
swords are not so threatening. They gaze down at me with benign warmth. One of the sword
handlers must be ninety if he is a day. He looks as if he is having trouble holding it. Then they’re gone
and there is just hands left reaching out.
A few more words and then, “Thank you, Brethren.” The mass of faces and their hands just melt
away.
I can see now, but before I get a chance to take it all in, I am off again. I am standing up the front.
Someone comes to stand in front of me. I hear him tell me he is going to tell me the secrets. “At last.
This is what I came for.” My ears are suffering from the strain. I am about to find out those salacious
secrets that everyone assures me are at the heart of Freemasonry.
“You put your hands this way…”. And “When you address the Worshipful Master…” Then “I was
taught to be cautious…”. A few more times round with more Gobbledegook at various places and it
was over. I was at last dressed in the beautiful suit and crisp shirt that my wife had spent so long
choosing on my behalf.
Short Papers Competition 2009
© 2010 Internet Lodge and the author
There were hand shakes all round.
“Congratulations.”
“Thanks.”
“Well done.”
“Thanks.” And so on.
Later that night I was laying in my bed thinking about the evening.
“Well what happened?” demanded the Keeper of the Keys.
“I haven’t got the faintest idea.” And sleep soon followed.